Returning has been fantastic

Returning to the place that your family is seems to be working out very nicely.
It always frightens me when I leave a place and have to come back here.
You see, I am not FROM this place, but I have NEVER felt more attached to a place in my life.
The East Coast has been a place that is filled with Heritage for me. My grandmother was born in Newfoundland and all my life I have been drawn to the culture and the qualities that makes you from the East Coast.
Friendly, welcoming, a sense of community, etc.
My father and his father were born in Nova Scotia and again, it doesn't matter if your from Newfoundland or New Brunswick......your an EASTERNER!!

Money and fame are things that little people grow to acquire, but as you get older, if your a lucky one, you will learn that these things are superficial and aren't really what makes life a FANTASTIC one.
Friends, a loving family and happiness are qualities that are most wanted.
Recently, I left an established career that brought me a great deal of money, but in the end, I didn't have any place to enjoy it.
I hadn't had any family that was close to me, I didn't have any friends to share it with, I didn't have a home to call my own.
It forced me to really take a look at what I found important in my life.
There are places that we can call HOME and it isn't even where we are born.
However, when HOME isn't possible, you find you can return to visit, but you can't stay there.

So, you pack your things, and continue on trying to find exactly what it is you were searching for all along.

Sometimes along the way, you loose things. Clothes that don't quite fit the way they use to, socks that the dryer just eats because it can, jobs that just were not what you thought they would be and family member and a friendship or two.

Now, some of these things you mourn, because the lost is out of control.
We grow up knowing full well that we are born to die. Eventually, we will pass through this life as well and head for the next journey, if that is what you truly believe.
The friendships perhaps hurt alot more then we anticipated. When so much has been shared, life's moments have included them. It was most important for you to reach out to these people when the best and most importantly WORST parts of our lives have been shared with them.
Your expectations of them are huge. You expect them to love you unconditionally, support you unconditionally and always, always, ALWAYS be on your side.
When one of them leaves your side, it cuts so deep that you cannot find the words to express exactly how you feel.
Your left with a hole......the sad thing is that they are still alive and living their lives without you.
But once again, we move forward and continue on with our lives, for it is US that makes our happiness.
We make new friends, we grow closer to our families, we live, learn, make mistakes, but in the end, it is we who can only truly make ourselves happy.
If you put that task on another human beings shoulders, you have ALOT to learn.
You can always ASSIST in the happiness but you can't make it.
I can't be sure what makes YOU happy, I can GUESS but I can't ever know for sure.
What I DO know for sure is what I WANT that will make ME happy!!

So, with the job that included a healthy pay check, GONE.......I return to the Eastern Coast to find exactly what it is that will make me happy.
Being with my parents has brought me alot of relief.
The smile has returned to my face and the joy that I once had to move forward has returned.
Since it has been only a month....I have recently been awarded a JOB!!
Simply part time but give me some time....I assure you I will be FULL TIME BEFORE LONG and I will have a home and will start sporting some roots, and that certainly won't be in my HAIR EITHER!!