As you can see......there has been alittle WHITE STUFF here.
Where am I you might be asking?
Small town Nova Scotia. The actual location is PLEASANTVILLE!!
Yes, I said PLEASANTVILLE!! Laugh if you want.....I ain't so sure it is PLEASANT but it IS where I am enjoying my vacation.
Yup....ENJOYING!!
Strange how your faced with adversity in your life and you truly learn alot about yourself....IF and only if.....you allow it to happen.
I have learnt that things TRULY HAPPEN FOR REASONS UNKNOWN TO US!!
What we do with those adversities is the key to your own happiness.
I have learnt in a very short time.....that I am certainly NOT suppose to be embarrassed.......or upset.....but merely suppose to ENJOY!!
I had a short moment of anger....dispair....but that has dissipated.
I have learnt that I DESERVED and NEEDED this vacation. I have worked EXTREMELY HARD at my job......went through MANY DAYS that I thought would NEVER end.
I worked with some INCREDIBLE people.....with whom I shared some moments that will stick with me till the day I die.
I laughed harder then I thought possible......I cried......and loved EVERY MOMENT!!
I left people behind.....for good....and bad. I realized that there are those WORTH fighting for and those....that need space and time.
It has been a journey that others have questioned......asked if I was SANE in making those decisions and I have to stick true, not only to MYSELF but my DREAMS!!
You see, your dreams are YOURS and YOURS ALONE!! And despite people's opinions....GOOD & BAD....they are YOURS to hold onto.....or pass up and move FORWARD from.
I was asked most recently about going back......
that would mean putting aside my dreams and returning with a PROMISE of my COMMITMENT.
I assure you....I am the MOST dedicated and committed person you will meet in your life, I HAVE and CONTINUE to ALWAYS give 110% of me in ALL I DO!!
If it ain't worth the 110%......there isn't a reason for me to continue with it.
That means, my life, my family, my friends.....music....work...WHATEVER it may be that I am focused on.
Questions are swirling around me from MANY of you....WHAT NEXT TRACEY? Are you going to come BACK? Are you going to work for DCL? WHAT IS GOING ON??
I am, in fact HAPPY where I am for the MOMENT. I KNOW that there is something SPECTACULAR coming....but for now....I have to be content with the vacation I so desperately needed.
Quality time with my family that desperately needed. I haven't been here in MONTHS. For those of you keeping score....JUNE!! That was for a few short days and before that.....an ENTIRE YEAR!!
And when you have a sibling that has passed.....and you realize that your time with your parents is soon to be taken away.....DO NOT read this and think there is ANYTHING WRONG WITH MY PARENTS. I ASSURE YOU....there is NOT!!
I am merely stating....that our mortality forces one to take note of ones self......and realize WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT and what is truly NOT!!
WOW, when I look back a week ago I was seeing my life as a mirrored image of two years ago when I returned the first time from Disney. However, NOW I have realized that I have gone SO FAR and done SO MUCH in those 2 years and I am NO WHERE NEAR in the same position I was.
I have purpose and DRIVE and a DREAM THAT AIN'T GONNA DIE!!
You see, you can wish upon that star so many times......but unless you work hard....those dreams will NEVER COME TRUE!!
So, I return to my vacation time......wishin up to Evangeline with alittle help from Raymon.....and don't worry.....you REALIZED LONG AGO....I am ALWAYS someone who gets what she wants.
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