When your heart and head are fighting.....

My heart misses HOME
Mu head is saying Toronto

What do I do?

I offer my life out to the Universe to push me exactly where I am suppose to go. Who I am suppose to be with, exactly WHERE I am suppose to be.
However, my head AND my heart can certainly FIGHT along the way.

My recent Epiphany to follow what I WANT, followed by the friend who blows through his life doing what HE wants, and bringing his mother along for the ride....makes me continue to feel as though I made the right decision.

That doesn't mean I am not allowed to miss things.....



So, this Birthday was, as usual, a DISNEY affair....
with the first box arriving with some sound effects......
cards that sing.....
a Platypus on a bag? A beaver in a party hat for a card?

Stepping Stones......to wonderful memories....

Orange paper, tied up with strings.....

here are a few of my favourite things.....

sunny days
warm beyond belief- so warm that others laugh at the mere thought of 100F heat and 100% humidity
friends that care for me like I was family
a magical place where dreams actually DO come true




Sure- people think that it's mental how much I want to return
How LARGE this DREAM is....and of course, others have moved forward, some have tried to return....for all the WRONG reasons.

Me- I thrive on what I can do for others, nothing makes a smile appear on my face more then when I see I have offered something to someone and they light up. Like speaking to a guest and finding out there was a death n the family and I was able to provide a Suite for the family at the Hotel so they can share each others love for the family. THAT MAKES ME HAPPY!!
Starting the fireworks at Epcot with a young vibrant girl because Mickey wasn't going to make it to the Park on time.....MAGICAL!! Something I will NEVER, EVER forget for the rest of my life and I know, after 4 years of emails, Christmas cards, Birthday gifts....neither has she.
Creating a dining reservation for a couple who have been dating for a while and the boyfriend secretly con finds in me that he is proposing to the girlfriend during dinner.
Bringing a mother and a son, who had already bought tickets to the concert but I have upgraded them to FRONT ROW......a dream come true. Did I mention the boy can'
t speak, is in a wheelchair and signed "THANK YOU"

How could you possibly not think for a second that God didn't work through me to make all these things possible?
You don't have to believe in what I am saying to realize I am DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY when in these situations......

I am ridiculously looking to take myself to BLISS and if this is MY BLISS.......



THE I WANT IT ALL